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Monday, April 12, 2010

Here's MOMMY!

My life is forever changed.   I did it!  I am officially a MOMMY!  I never knew it was possible to love another human being as much as I love my daughter.  There is nothing in this world that is as precious to me as she.  I understand now why when you see people with children they always want to show you a picture of them and tell you all about them.  They are your JOY.  I have been many places, seen many things, done all kinds of events, bought many things, but none of these ever came close to making me as happy as I do when I see the face of my angel. 
My friend Claire came by yesterday and we were discussing how children are a gift from God.  She made a great point when she said, “having a baby is the one time we as humans can assist God in a miracle.”  She is absolutely right and what a miracle it is!  I have thanked God a million times for blessing me with this truly miraculous gift, and I will continue to do so until the day I die.
Recap…last Tuesday (the greatest day of the year in my opinion), my birthday, I saw my doctor.  I was almost a week over due and she said we had to induce.  So I was admitted to the hospital and they started the drip.  {For those of you, who don’t know me well, I am a total control freak, I had a certain birth plan in mind and induction was not part of it.  I had played it out in my mind that I was going to be out somewhere, my water would break, and I would call friends and family and say, “my water just broke!”  I also wanted to deliver naturally.  None of these things happened.  If you are pregnant my advice is have a plan but be open to ANYTHING!}  So, I am on the drip, contractions start coming, in time getting stronger and more frequent.  When the contractions were coming at a minute apart and spiking off the chart, I decided that an epidural was in order.  After 16 hours, dilating only 8 cmm (close but no cigar), my doctor said that a vaginal birth wasn’t happening.  We were going to have to do a cesarean section.  I cried, things were not going at all as I planned!  At 10:58pm after a long arduous labor I heard the most wonderful sound I have ever heard, and my daughter was in the world. 
So now April 6th really is the greatest day ever, not because it is my birthday, but because it is hers.  I have had plenty of birthdays anyway.  I got the greatest gift I could ever get the day she was born.  No one will ever be able to give me a more beloved gift.  If I sound like I am beaming it is because I am, if it sounds like I am the happiest person on the planet I am, if it sounds like I am in love like I have never been in love before…guess what I AM!  All of the hardships I went through during my pregnancy and delivery I would do a thousand times over, because in the end it was all worth it.
Thank you all for following me through this journey of my life.  I may have once been “The Unexpecting Mommy” but now I am and will forever be, happily just “MOMMY”.  I will continue to write so please keep checking.
Please also understand that out of discreteness and privacy I will not be posting pictures (except this one of me looking lovely...not) of my daughter or using her name.

1 comment:

Wes and Rae Leytham said...

I am so happy for you and baby L. What an amazing gift you received!