Many of my friends have suggested that I keep a journal during my time away from Angel. To them I say, I appreciate the suggestion and already do. Keeping a journal is a marvelous idea, and I strongly feel that everyone should do it. I have journals that go all the way back to the 5th grade. It’s funny to look back on them and read what was important in my life when I was 10.
October 22, 1987
I hate my new perm. The boys are calling me worm head. I wish I had never gotten it. I don’t understand why they have to be so mean. Just wait until they see me at Halloween when I spray it pink!
Oh to be young and to only worry about your hair. When I found out I was pregnant I immediately started a pregnancy journal, and I plan on giving it to Angel when she gets older just as my Mom did for me. I haven’t gone back and read anything that I wrote during my pregnancy, but I do recall that I noted my friends and family’s reaction to the news of my pregnancy, the first time that I felt her move, the first time I heard her heartbeat and how I cried at the beauty of the sound. Even after she was born I have kept up with this journal writing about her milestones as well as my own. I also have this blog which someday will be turned into a book, even if it is only for us to read. Another thing I have done to ensure that she know I am always thinking of her is, I created an email account for her when she was 6 months old and occasionally send her emails. I have given her email address to my friends and family to do the same. This is something you readers could do for your kids. They may not check their email now but they will when they are 15 or 16, who am I kidding probably when they are 10 or 11. Also, I wanted her to have a cool screen name. Most names are already taken and who wants to be Bizygurl22_90210*GoGators@hotmail.com?
You never know what tomorrow will hold, who will be around and who may not, email won’t go away (at least I don’t think it will). It can’t be destroyed by fire or water, and multiple people can use it. The messages just sit in virtual purgatory until they are summoned up and read. In the event that something happens to my journals she will always have these messages of love.
If any of you would like to send Angel an email please feel free to email it to Unexpectingmommy@gmail.com and I will forward it to her. I won’t read them, but out of respect for her privacy I don’t want to give her actual one out.
Have a great weekend!!!!!!!!