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Sunday, November 13, 2011

Baby Stuff

Yesterday after a glorious night sleep, I woke up, had coffee in bed, caught up on the news, and did some yoga.  I decided I needed to do some things around my house.  Angel is with her Father so instead of my usual 6:00 a.m. wake up call, early breakfast, and morning walk around the neighborhood looking for insects and airplanes, I was able to have some me time and take care of some things I have wanted to take care of for a while.  One of the things I have been meaning to do was to go through Angel’s baby stuff and get rid of anything she is not using.  I am not a pack rat, and do not like to hold on to things that are not needed.  I have held onto most of Angel’s baby stuff this long because so many of my friends are having babies.  I have been giving some of her stuff to them.  However, yesterday I decided it was time to get rid of things like her swing, her first bathtub, her pack and play, and a lot of her clothes.  While going through all of this stuff sadness came over me and songs like “Don’t Blink” and “You’re Gonna Miss This” started playing in my head.  I found newborn pajama’s that are so small seeing them made my heart ached that my little princess has gotten so big so fast.  I see why everyone speaks cliché.  “They grow up so fast”, “You’ll turn around any they’ll be in college” just to name a few.  In these moments a longing came over me and all of a sudden the thing I never thought I would feel, say, admit to shot through me like lighting.  I want another baby.  When my friends would tell me this after having a baby I thought they were nuts!  How could you want another baby when you are just starting to get decent sleep and the diaper stage is almost over?  Many people have asked me if I wanted another baby and I have said, “no” because of my experience with my pregnancy, birth, and first year alone with Angel.  If I do have another baby I am sure I won’t be the only one talking to and rubbing my tummy while the baby is kicking and getting up in the middle of the night to quite cries.  Either way I am still getting rid of some of this stuff.  In the event that I need it again in the future I will borrow it back from my friends or buy it.  Who knows I may need another color?!

"Don't Blink" 

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