Angel and my birthday has come and gone. She turned 2 and I turned 27……again. I can say she is the best birthday present I have ever gotten and will ever receive, that she is the most precious thing to me, but if you have been reading my blog for any length of time this will all be redundant. I am sure every year I will marvel at the love I have for her and how she is the most perfect gift from God. Instead of going on and on with all of that sappiness I will write about the reflection I’ve had during this time. The age of 1 to 2 is fun. When they are babies they do all the “first” things which are memorable because it is the first time they have ever walked, said Momma, and spit out green peas. As children move through their first year on to their second they begin showing their personality and discovering the world around them. Small things like looking for worms on a Saturday morning walk become an absolute adventure. They being talking, and the way they say words makes you want to eat them because they are so sweet and amusing. They also learn the word “no” and love to repeat it to you when you tell them not to do something. Angel has recently put her dolls in time out and told them to, “not get up”. She also likes taking them to the potty; 2 dolls and a teddy bear have almost drowned in the toilet. This past year I have heard the sweetest words I have ever heard which were, “I love you Mommy”. Angel moved from a crib to a big girl bed after becoming the crib escape artist. I have realized that I refer to myself in the third person all the time now. “Mommy is going to work”, “Mommy loves you”, “Don’t hit Mommy”. Angel has shown her intelligence buy knowing the alphabet at 17 months, counting to 20 (to 10 in English and French), recognizing shapes and colors. I think she is the smartest kid ever but most parents think that about their kids (not sure my mom thought that about me:). She also is establishing her spirituality by praying before all of her meals and before she goes to bed. A typical prayer goes something like this, I recite “Now I lay me down to sleep……….. God bless Lucy” then she begins to list who all she would like God to bless. It is funny who all she mentions; Nana, Gigi (my sister), Roo Roo (her husband), Santa Clause (got to keep him in good graces), the bear, Nanny Vic Vic, who else (she started adding who else and anyone else after I would ask her if there was anyone else she would like to pray for. I think she thinks these are actual people?), and Mommy. It is funny who all is included each night and how the list changes. This year was awesome I have captured many things in my journal and in my head hoping never to forget them.
This birthday party was much more interactive than last year. Angel actually blew out the candle all by herself and tore through presents like a pro! Since our birthdays were close to Easter I went with an Easter theme and made a giant Easter egg as the cake, topped off with vibrant colored Peeps. She had a blast, and I know this because she went to bed early and did not move once I laid her down. Since we do share the same birthday mine becomes an afterthought but that’s okay because she is more important than me. Besides I had someone make my birthday very special (more on that in the future ;).
In all of this reflection I look back on the past two and a half years of my life and recognize where I was emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. I have been through so much these years and this time has made me realize what is truly important and forced me to grow up. In all that I have been through I can say this was all part of God’s perfect plan for me. Instead of wallowing in self-pity I relish in God’s love. Angel was always in God’s plan for me. I never thought I wanted to be a mother and if I would have done things my way I wouldn’t be, but God knew I had never experienced true unconditional love and that I would be an excellent mother. You can’t see it when you’re in it, but God always comes through.
Happy Birthday to my sweet precious Angel. You will hear this a thousand times, but you are the best gift I ever received. I love you so much and look forward to another fantastic year!