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Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Why I Write

I have sat down in front of my computer many nights with the intentions of writing about things like trips to the circus, the fair, pumpkin patches, the zoo, attending fall festivals, about temper tantrums that show themselves on a daily basis, about the lack of privacy I have in the bathroom since we started potty training, and about my own personal struggles being single. After I get a few lines written I think, who wants to read about this? This is stuff almost every parent goes through (with the exception of being single). I can write about all of the cute and funny stuff Angel does that delights my soul, but doesn’t every parent feel that way about their child? “I have the blackest black bird” says the momma black bird.  Honestly, who wants to constantly hear about how awesome someone thinks their kid is, much less read about it?  I don't know if anyone that reads this takes anything away from it or not.  I am not sure if the advice that I sometimes give is looked at as valuable or just nonsense.  At the end of the day I guess I write this for myself and for Angel.  There are many personal things about our life I document in a journal that I keep for us. There are so many things I want to write for her. I would love to give a daily synopsis of her activity but this is the best I can do. 

As the holiday season approaches I am sure my blogs will be even sparser as I busy myself with cooking, shopping, decorating, and attending holiday gatherings. I am looking forward to the holiday but only for Angel’s sake. I know this year will be tons of fun considering she is 2 and a half and understands what is going on better than in previous years. I can’t wait for her to wake up Christmas morning and see what all Santa has brought for her. Of course this means that
creepy elf will have to come back out and watch, not only her but me as well, (see blog post Tis the Season) which I am not looking forward too. For me personally I am not looking forward to another Christmas morning alone. I never understood why the holidays caused some people to be so depressed. How can anyone be sad during "The Most Wonderful time of the Year"???  I understand now. The thought of another holiday season with no special gifts to give or receive, no kisses under the mistletoe, and of course no one to write down New Year’s resolutions with me breaks my heart. Still I will put on the happy face for Angel and make this Christmas and holiday season magical because it is not about me, it is about her. That is how it should be.  Hopefully through all of this I will find time to write some things down and if anyone is interested share it with you.

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